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You Can Go Home

By: Susan Landau


I’ve heard it said that you can’t go home again- everyone from Thomas Wolfe to Bon Jovi

has contemplated that reality. We think we can’t go home because we change, while home

remains the same. Old familiar places shine a spotlight on all the ways in which we

ourselves are now different.

But I have found that when it comes to Temple Emanu-El, I can go home. I grew up at

Emanu-El, often spending multiple days a week in the building that was my home away

from home. And now that I’ve been away for college and rabbinical school, one might

imagine that it would be hard to return. But Emanu-El has grown alongside me.

When I came back to the Meeting House this past Rosh Hashanah, I was comforted by

everything that was exactly as it’s always been. Familiar melodies, warm hugs from the

people who have known me my entire life, those musty purple folding chairs, the over-air-

conditioned space urging congregants to put sweaters over their holiday best. But there

were new things as well- beautiful white covers for the Torah scrolls, a new machzor that is

full of interesting tidbits, and a beautiful new voice leading us in song.

In these past few years Emanu-El has been finding a balance between old and new, and so

have I.

I am the same Susan Landau who spent countless hours singing and dancing on that

Meeting House stage. I am the same Susan Landau who used to rush up to lead Adon Olam

at the end of services in the Main Sanctuary. The same Susan Landau who used to whisper

to her sister in the pews (and sometimes, still does).

But of course, I have also changed. I knew returning to Temple Emanu-El in a leadership

role would be different, and I was not sure how it would feel. Is everyone ready to see that

I’ve grown up?

Thank you, Temple Emanu-El, for letting me come home. We have all grown, and we have

all stayed the same. I am an erev rav, about to be ordained, and you all watched me grow

into the person I am today. I am so grateful that one of the constant homes in my life will

always be there for me, no matter where I am. That is the best that Providence has to offer.

Mon, May 25 2020 2 Sivan 5780